Monthly Archives: February 2019

An Experimental Vegetarian Stew

  • 1/2 Tbsp cumin
  • 1/2 Tbsp Sea Salt
  • 1 Tsp coarse ground black pepper
  • 1/2 Tbsp fresh ground chili paste
  • 1 c unsweetened almond milk
  • 2 tomatillos, diced
  • 1 cucumber, peeled and diced
  • 1 small onion or 1/2 large onion, diced
  • 1 c chick peas
  • 1 Avocado
  1. Combine all ingredients, except avocado, in medium sauce pan and simmer over medium-low heat until stew reaches desired thickness.
  2. Top with sliced avocado
  3. Enjoy!

My Top 25 Most Played Songs Now vs 2011 — Part II — Now

This is [clearly] part two, but I am posting it first because I am on my 3rd Mac since 2011 and these files were more easily accessed than the 2011 top 25.

Cecilia and the Satellite by Andrew McMahon

“Of all the things my eyes have seen the best by far is you…”

This song has a sweetness and a sentimentality that is rarely found in media in this age, intertwined with the telling of an interesting life story and I loved it from the very first time I heard it.

Problem by Ariana Grande Feat. Iggy Azalea

I found this song on a Nike running playlist. I love the lyrics and the tempo. It is highly relatable. Who in her quest for the one hasn’t been here:

“Head in the clouds
Got no weight on my shoulders
I should be wiser
And realize that I’ve got
One less problem without ya

Everybody Backstreets Back Extended Version by Backstreet Boys

The Backstreet Boys became popular at the end of my teens and I was not into pop at the time, so I never heard their music until I heard it at the end of a Judd Apatow or maybe a Seth Rogen comedy with the entire cast lip syncing and dancing to it. The movie is a favorite of mine, so the song kind of grew on me as I saw the scene more and more.

I want it that way by Backstreet Boys

I am unsure of where I first heard this tune, but I just like it a lot.

Just a friend by Biz Markie.

This one goes way back to 1989, when I was in the sixth grade and we used to sing, “Oh baby yoouu got a dis-ea-ease and you say it’s just a rash, but it’s crawling up your ass” but since has come to remind me of a certain situation in which I became involved with someone, thinking one relationship was ending and then it didn’t. So the new guy likes to throw this my way, since I ended it, which I think is hilarious.

Sinister Kid by The Black Keys

“I got a tortured mind and my blade is sharp — a bad combination, in the dark.”

I came to love this song when I bought the album for two other tracks and it reminds me of myself and the [for lack of a better word] aforementioned gentleman. Great lyrics combined with bad ass music just make for a kick ass tune. Enjoy!

I don’t like Mondays by The Boomtown Rats

This is a song about a school shooting that occurred in my hometown in 1979. The perpetrator’s name is Brenda Spencer and when asked why she did it, she claimed it was because she did not like Mondays. This is a simplified explanation for the fact that she was clearly mentally ill, should not have had access to a gun, did not like the noise from the school across the street from her home and Mondays represented the broken peace of the weekend.

I once had a dream that a real estate agent tried to sell me her house and one of his selling points was that she had lived there and this song had been written about her.

Ain’t no Mountain High Enough by Diana Ross

This is what he tells me to declare his allegedly undying love and justify stalking me, but it’s just so much awesomeness that I listen to it anyway.

FACK by Eminem

I was first introduced to this track by a young adult who used to subtweet me all the time until I got bored with it and blocked him on twitter. The one thing I know we have in common is that we are both so immature we think it is hilarious, even though it is vile, sexist and disgusting.

i hate u, i love u by gnash featuring Olivia O’Brien

I drove for Uber for awhile a few years ago and drove an uber pool one day. After picking up my first passenger, it had gotten dark and foggy on the way to the next pickup, where the location was off and I had to inch my way along the street for more than a block until I found the guy who ordered the ride. He told me we were waiting on his cousin, who took forever and ended up being drunker than he was. So when they got in my back seat they played music on their phone all the way to their destination and this song played while they loudly sang along, interspersed with complaints about my driving. So this song is kind of a souvenir of the worst Uber ride I ever had.

I Love It by Icono Pop featuring Charli XCX

This is another song I found on a Nike running playlist and I just love it to pieces. Great lyrics and a great tempo for running.

“… You’re on a different road, I’m in the milky way
You want me down on earth, but I am up in space
You’re so damn hard to please, we gotta kill this switch 
You’re from the 70’s, but I’m a 90’s bitch…”

This song is also an endearing reminder of some complicated relationships that I have with some older men in my life because I AM a 90s bitch. 😉

It’s Time Imagine Dragons

“So this is what you meant, when you said your life was spent and now it’s time to build build from the bottom right to the top. Don’t hold back…”

This song just makes me think of all the changes I have undergone in my life in the last decade, hitting rock bottom and working my way back up.

Let Me Love You Down by Inoj

I just love this song so much. There is no real rhyme or reason why. I just do.

“All of your friends say I’m just too young for you, but tell ’em — I can do what girls their age can do”

I guess you can apply it to the fact that I always date much older men and women.

You Know You’re Right by Nirvana

I’m posting the youtube video of this song because iTunes. LeSigh.

I believe this song is about Courtney Love’s crazy, maniacal accusations that Kurt Cobain was abusive, which I [obviously] do not believe; although it reminds me of things said to me by my stalker who has crazily placed himself in the victim role between us.

Bad Romance by Lady Romance

I love this song because all of my relationships have had a sickness to them and her alliteration to Hitchcock films is particularly appealing to me as a literary and film buff.

“I want your psycho,
Your vertigo stick,
Want you in my rear window,
Baby, you’re sick”

Love Runs Out by One Republic

Sitting in a bunker here behind my wall
Waiting for the worms to come
In perfect isolation here behind my wall
Waiting for the worms to come

I think this one goes without explanation, for anyone who has been paying attention.

Pink Floyd -- Waiting for the Worms

This song is [obviously] about Janet Jackson and I don’t know why (probably because of the hypocrisy of a woman being shamed for promiscuity when a man would be lauded), but I think it’s hilarious — especially the part of the video where he is sitting on the end of the bed rocking, watching TV with the corpse behind him (I have a sick sense of humor).

You put a sour little flavor in my mouth now
You move in circles hoping no one’s gonna find out
But we’re so lucky
Kiss the ring and let ’em bow down
Looking for the time of your life (no one’s gonna find out)

Miss Jackson by Panic! at the Disco (Feat. LOLO)

This is totally stalker-y but in a sweet way, so I guess that is why I like it so much.

I was only walking through your neighborhood
Saw you out loud honey in the cold I stood
Anywhere I go there you are
Anywhere I go there you are

Fire and the Flood by Vance Joy

I found this song in a discussion board for a music class I took in college. A fellow student had posted a performance of the song with an orchestra and I was instantly in love with it. I feel like this is an anthem for my whole life.

Storm, in the morning light
I feel
No more can I say
Frozen to myself
I got nobody on my side
And surely that ain’t right
And surely that ain’t right
Oh, can’t anybody see
We’ve got a war to fight
Never found our way
Regardless of what they say

Roads by Portishead

I just can’t get enough of this song.

Laughin’ gas these hazmats, fast cats
Linin’ ’em up like ass cracks
Play these ponies at the track
It’s my chocolate attack

(This is like the line from my poem “Whimsy” — this is the back alley where everybody gets their something.

Feel Good Inc.

I was introduced to this song by a former friend of mine who only liked it because the singing is so smooth and then turns to yelling without warning, but to me, when he says —

I’ve been waiting
I’ve been waiting for this moment all my life
But it’s not quite right
And this real
It’s impossible if possible
At whose blind word
So clear but so unheard
I’ve been waiting
I’ve been waiting for this silence all night long
It’s just a matter of time
To appear sad
With the same old decent lazy eye
Fixed to rest on you
Aim free and so untrue
it spoke volumes to me about the journey I have been on this last decade.
Lazy Eye

I know the breakdown
Everything is gonna shake now someday
I know the breakdown
Tell me again am I awake now
Maybe you can find the reason that
No one else is living this way

… figure it out …


Traveling in a fried-out combie
On a hippie trail, head full of zombie
I met a strange lady, she made me nervous
She took me in and gave me breakfast
And she said

… just because it’s awesome …


It’s only gonna be about a matter of time
Before you get loose and start lose your mind
Cop you a drink, go head and rock your ice
‘Cause we celebrating No More Drama in our life
With a great track pumpin’, everybody’s jumpin’
Goin ahead and twist your back and get your body bumpin’
I told you leave your situations at the door
So grab somebody and get your ass on the dance floor

For me, this song represents the moment I let go of all the pain and hate that was keeping me sick and made peace with my demons.


I backed my car into a cop car the other day
Well, he just drove off – sometimes life’s okay
I ran my mouth off a bit too much, ah what did I say?
Well, you just laughed it off and it was all okay

… just a little reminder that life can be summed up in 3 little words — it goes on …


Whatever you say it’s alright
Whatever you do it’s all good
Whatever you say it’s alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it

It seems we have a common theme working here. It’s all about Zen and taking things as they come.


Real gangsta-ass [bitches] don’t talk much
All ya hear is the black from the gun blast

… ’nuff said …


If it seems like I’ve been lost
In let’s remember
If you think I’m feeling older
And missing my younger days
Oh, then you should have known
Me much better
Cause my past is something that never
Got in my way

I’ve been through a lot of shit and most of the people who know me know that, but I have always lived my life the way I wanted to regardless of what was going down.


Desert Island Disc track…

That is all.


So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it’s sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again.
The sun is the same in a relative way but you’re older,
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.

Again, Desert Island Disc track.


My First Vegetarian Lasagna


It may be ugly, but it was delicious! I devoured 8 servings in two days and I normally don’t eat that much. This meal is incredibly high in fat. I am not endorsing it in any way as health food. It is simply free of animal products.


  • Medium mixing bowl
  • Medium frying pan
  • 13 x 8 baking dish ( I prefer glass)
  • Knife
  • Foil



  • Small eggplant
  • 1 c baby spinach
  • 32 oz Heirloom tomato sauce
  • 9 Pieces Organic green lentil lasagne
  • 16 oz Tofutti Milk Free Better than Ricotta Cheese (…And it WAS! SO creamy!)
  • 2 – 8 oz packages daiya deliciously dairy free mozzarella style shreds
  • 1 c veggie crumbles



  1. Preheat your oven to 375, if necessary.
  2. Skin eggplant and slice lengthwise
  3. Prepare veggie crumbles according to package directions
  4. In a medium size bowl, mix the Tofutti ricotta and the daiya mozzarella shreds, reserving one half of one package of shreds,
  5. In a lightly oiled 13 x 8 baking pan or dish, place three pieces of lasagne side by side, so they cover the bottom.
  6. Spread half of the cheese mixture over the lasagne
  7. Layer the veggie crumbles on top of cheese mixture
  8. Pour 1/2 of the tomato sauce over it
  9. Align three more pieces of lasagna on top
  10. Evenly spread the remaining cheese mixture
  11. Cover with sliced eggplant
  12. Arrange spinach over eggplant
  13. Add remaining three pieces of lasagna
  14. Pour remaining sauce over lasagna
  15. Evenly distribute remaining shreds over the top


  1. Retrieve a piece of foil more than large enough to cover the dish and lightly fold it in half lengthwise.
  2. Place the foil so that it is secured on the ends but tent-like down the center.
  3. Place in the oven and bake for 40 minutes
  4. Remove foil and bake an additional 10 minutes
  5. Remove from oven and preferably place on a wire rack
  6. Allow it to cool for at least 20 minutes, then serve.

Veggie Sandwich


  • 1 Ciabatta bread roll
  • 2 TBSP Olive oil
  • 1 slice of tofu
  • 1 or 2 slices of eggplant
  • 2 to 3 slices of red bell pepper
  • 1/2 large avocado
  • 3 sliced mushrooms
  • Handful of baby spinach
  • 1 TBSP Wildwood Aioli
  • 1 TBSP Vegan Basil Pesto


  1. Slice ciabatta roll and place in toaster oven and set oven to desired level.
  2. Heat olive oil in large skillet over medium-low heat
  3. Add tofu, eggplant, and red bell pepper
  4. Turn ingredients in 2 – 3 minutes
  5. Cook the other side for another 2 – 3 minutes
  6. Spread aioli on one side of toasted ciabatta roll
  7. Spread pesto on opposite side of ciabatta roll
  8. Spread sliced avocado on one side of roll
  9. Layer mushroom slices on avocado
  10. Add tofu
  11. Arrange eggplant and bell pepper
  12. Top with baby spinach leaves
  13. Cover with remaining half of roll.
  14. Enjoy!